Wednesday, September 15, 2010

Sweet Child

Dear Olivia,

You changed life dramatically for so many of us in this last year, and most importantly for your parents.

From the moment your mommy told me she was carrying you, she was glowing to know you were her baby. So many times throughout her pregnancy there were moments we were worried for her health. She did everything in her power to make sure you were healthy and well cared for.

To hold you the day you were born was such a magical moment. You were so tiny, your whole 4lbs 9oz. You were so warm in my arms and smelled like heaven. Sweet child, I enjoyed every moment I had to hold you and watch you live. You made your mommy and daddy so happy and I don't think they could have spared one more ounce of love for anyone but you.

Yesterday, I felt like my world had been turned upside down. To learn of your sudden passing at just 4 days shy of 4 months old, I hurt in a way I couldn't imagine. Your mother is such a dear and true friend to me, enough so she allowed me to be Auntie Cassie. Olivia, my first niece, I already miss your presence. To see your parents hurt the way they do is just heart breaking, so much I feel overwhelmed and completely helpless. It's not right to be with your parents at home, surrounded by so much belonging to you and not having you there. To hear your cooing and whimpers. To hear your giggles and see your smile.

I feel comforted to know you're with God now and knowing you served a very important purpose to so many of us here on earth in your short amount of time. I just hope we find the meaning sooner than later. Our hearts will ache for a long time and our lives have been changed forever.

I love you with all my heart,
Auntie Cassie



Kate said...

I am SO sorry for your loss. I can't even imagine what her parents are going through. I'll keep you all in my prayers.

Meg said...

Cassie, that is so beautiful. It's hard to put words on a moment in time like this, but you always seem to find just what to say. I remember when Brian died and you made the memorial page for him. Your words brought so many people together that were shocked by his death. I feel lucky to be your friend and I know Olivia's Mommy and Daddy are grateful to have you as theirs also. I am always a call or drive away!! :::HUGS::: megs

Jamie said...

I am so sorry for your and your families loss. I'll be keeping you in my thoughts.

Cassie said...

Thank you ladies, so much. It's still just so sad. I think the hurt will linger for a long time. I just hope that her memory doesn't fade too quickly.